It's been a little while!

It's been almost a month since I blogged... what is this?! Time goes by so fast nowadays, it's a little scary.

Anyway, if you watch my videos you'll know that I had a little blip recently. By "a little blip", I mean, I've been feeling down and like I need to hit the reset button on myself. Don't worry, everything is fine! I do go into it in more detail in this video:

But I'm sure once I've been on my travels to Majorca I'll feel A okay and ready with a refreshed mind. Speaking of Majorca, I'm literally going away in 11 days from today and have 6 days of work left (booyar!). You don't even know how much I'm looking forward to it, like seriously.

In other YouTube news, I've started a new series on my Kelly Jayne (Minion1824) channel called "Storytime with Kelly" or STWK for short, haha. It's basically a place where I can sit down and tell you guys stories about experiences I've had in my life. They'll vary from funny to more serious, long and short stories; I think this is going to be an awesome series. I uploaded the first episode today and you can watch it here:

 

Recently I've been super busy getting furniture in my room; I'll be blogging about my room once it's all finished but I'm loving how it's coming together now. We went to IKEA for literally 3 hours picking out the furniture but we got there eventually and it's all looking snazzy now. Hooray! For me having a workspace finally!

I hope things have been well on your end, but if not, that's okay. Things happen in life and it's just part of it, the important thing to know is you aren't alone and things WILL get better. Hang in there and smile! Never overlook how powerful a smile can be. :)

Until next time!

Kelly Jayne

                                                                  
                                                                          

Segway Experience!

Yesterday consisted of a spontaneous trip to Cannock to ride segways in the middle of a huge forest! It was epic, yet terrifying at the same time! 

   

 

The crew!

I was riding around on a segway along with my cousin Natasha on the left, Chris who's next to her, and then my uncle on the right of me. (I can't help but notice how small I look compared to them)

We started off on our adventure and this was the view. The amount of trees around us was just phenomenal, and when you looked up you could see people swinging from zip wires and other obsticals attached from tree to tree (which I totally want to do next time by the way).

The actual segway itsself was pretty easy to ride, you lean your weight to the balls of your feet to move forward, shift your weight back to slow and put your weight back to neutral position to keep still, which was actually the most difficult part for me, hahaha. Oh, and obviously you steer with the handle bars. What I can say about these things is that they are super sensitive, you have to use small movements when steering. I could imagine you could spin around quite fast on these things which I was so tempted to try but didn't, hahah!

My favourite area we rode through was this place! It. Was. So. Beautiful. However, I did almost crash into the bushes on this part... whoops!

Hills. Something I am actually terrified about facing when on a segway. However, I took it slowly and didn't kill myself, yay!

And at the end of the session we got a certificate and car sticker that said "My other car is a segway!" phaha, will be sticking that on shortly!

You will see all of the footage I got from the day in my vlog on my KellyJayneTV channel on the weekend. I strapped my Canon to a torso mount and it worked really, really well!

So, if you're now thinking "I want to try this!" then I say definitely do it. It was a unique and fun experience. Also, if you ever get the chance, go to Cannock Chase Forest because it is absolutely beautiful.

Finding myself

                                                             

As much as I have changed over the years, I am still trying to figure myself out. I often wonder "Will I ever truly know who I am?", but surely I will eventually, right?
 
The reason I am writing this post is so I can talk about what I mean by "still trying to figure myself out". I guess I feel like I haven't found my complete self just yet. Like, there are some things I just have not discovered, I cannot quite explain it without sounding vague. 

That does not mean to say that everything I have put forward of myself online so far is fake and untrue; it is very much the opposite. Everything you see of me online is me, I wouldn't dare fake who I am to please anybody or mislead. There is just something (or multiple things) missing from somewhere in my life that I simply cannot pinpoint at this moment in time. 

It is a little frustrating to have this feeling in myself that I can't shake off! But, then again, it's fun to have this challenge to try to find 100% of myself. Whether this takes me days, months or years, it's all part of the adventure in life. Maybe one day on my journey I will have a moment of unexpected clarity, like the missing piece of a puzzle is found or something, I don't know.

You may be reading this and thinking "What the hell are you going on about, Kelly?" but I know because it's my own thoughts and feelings at this time, even if I don't truly KNOW what it is I'm looking for. Maybe this will make more sense in the future.

Maybe I need to experiment with my style? Get in touch with the deepest corners of my personality? Act on my dreams instead of just dreaming them? Do all those things I would love to do instead of just saying I would love to do them? Explore the world, even if it is on my own? Think about ways I could improve myself so I can help others? Work harder to achieve my ambitions? Contribute more to help the world? Go out into the world and meet people?

I myself NEED to do these things. I HAVE to get up and work HARDER for the things I want in my life. I am determined to achieve every dream, every ambition, every goal...

And who knows? Maybe I'll find myself along the way.



Kelly Jayne

Be thankful today!

Greetings all! Just checking in on my blog seems as I haven't written in a few weeks (I've been super busy with work and my recent camping break). Now I'm back to reality, how are you? I hope you're doing well but if not, just smile right now and know that you can start a fresh every day!


I myself am doing well, I really needed that week break with crappy/no internet. Being outside surrounded by nature every day is a fantastic feeling and is exactly what I needed to refresh my mind and remind myself to focus on what is important in life. Spending quality time with family is so, so important to me and the fact that I have documented these important moments in my vlogs means the world. It's one of the reasons I do this! So I can relive these times in my life whenever I want and never forget the little things.

I'm filled with gratitude. I am so incredibly thankful for the people in my life, to be able to visit all of these wonderful places, to be able to capture every moment and keep it physically in reach to relive again in the future, to have a close and loving relationship between my family members. I am forever thankful for my life.

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Be thankful today! Look into your life and think about the things that matter. It's so easy to get lost in daily life and not think too much about the important things because we're all busy busy busy, running here, running there. So, just have a moment to clarify and ask yourself what is really important. Take a vacation, have a day out with loved ones, whatever you choose to do, I hope it refreshes your mind like it did mine. :)

Many hugs,

Kelly   

Yes, I am in a band!

                                                           

For those of you who are unaware, I am indeed in a little band. We're a 3 person band; me (bass player), Chris (guitarist on the left of the picture), and Natasha (drummer who has the red plaid jeans on the picture). We don't have a singer yet however one of us may become the singer, not entirely sure!

We started our band a couple of months ago so we're in the really early stages of playing our instruments and playing together, however, we are done so well so far and I'm really proud!

Yesterday we had another band session. It kinda turned into a chill session as opposed to a serious, full-blown band practice however it was real fun as always! Here are some shots from the day:

                                                              

 The dude on the right is our friend Scott who wanted to hang out with us whilst  we practiced.

I uploaded a vlog some months ago of our first ever studio session, if you want to watch it, check it out here!
 
 

The second ever band session was documented in a raw type video which you can watch here!



                                                           

And lastly, the video from today is right here!                                           

Thank you so much for becoming my friend!!

Today I reached 1,000 friends on my Kelly Jayne (Minion1824) YouTube channel! OH. MY. GOSH. I honestly didn't expect even 1 person to subscribe to the channel when I first started uploading videos in late 2012, let alone 1,000 people!

It kind of blows my mind to think that someone would go out of their way to watch my little videos and take the time to like, comment and even subscribe for more of them. YouTube is still a new thing to me, just like with everything it takes time and practice to get better and better and I just want to thank all of you for becoming my friend.

Let's have a little rewind as a tiny celebration on this corner of the internet! Ha ha!

Dun, dun, duuuun! My FIRST EVER VIDEO UPLOADED TO THIS CHANNEL. This was when I was studying Media at school; I decided to create a silly video of some of the bloopers from various projects. Slightly embarrassing to say the least but there we go!

A huge experience in my life was going to NYC on my own with my cousin Natasha. It was an AMAZING experience and my first travel video on the channel. This is part 1 but part 2 and 3 can be found easily on the channel.                                                                        

EVEN MORE CRINGE-NESS!! My first ever vlog ever in the history of ever (what?!). Anyway, yeah, it's awkward! I'm awkward... but it's my first vlog and I HAD to include this in the rewind! If only I knew then what I'd be doing now and how many people would be here!

Now THIS was a fun video to film. My first video on this channel with my awesome cousin, Natasha. Man, this does not feel like almost 2 years ago!

This is definitely an important video to include; my first ever time opening up about my experience with Social Anxiety. I actually can't believe I built up the courage to share this with the world but I'm so glad I did. If I can help at least one person through the little inspirational videos I create, that's all that matters to me.
                   

                                                      
My first friend holiday to Fuerteventura! This was really awesome, had such a blast!

                                                                                                              
This was the first time I've experienced losing a family member (my nan). I found that talking about this situation really helped the mourning process. It was actually a year last week that my nan passed on... its kinda crazy how fast the year has gone and what has changed since then.

                                                                                                                     Another huge moment in my life; passing my driving test first time!!                                                          

                                                                              
My favourite challenge that we've done so far has got to be the Heads Up Challenge - SO hilarious!

When me, Natasha and Chris decided to form a band! This was actually only our second time ever having a band practice session!

And lastly, one of my most recent videos, an inspirational one based on negativity on the internet. I love spreading kind and positive words and I hope to make somebody smile or feel like they aren't alone. It's why I love doing YouTube! To spread love and light!

Thank you so much for reading this, and if you watched the videos then thank you again. I cannot wait to see what this life has in store for me in the future. I was oblivious to what would be in the future when I made these first few videos on YouTube and 1,000 people may not be a big number to some people, but it's a huge number to me. I feel so very blessed to be able to capture life and continue to make these little videos, whether they be funny, informative, inspirational, whatever; I love doing it.                                                                                                                   
Love to you!

Kelly Jayne x                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

A weird week in my life!

As you've probably realised, I haven't had a video up on both of my channels this week. The poopy week all started with the fact that my editing software simply could not export the video files without errors. It took me way too long to realise that all I needed to do was uninstall and reinstall the software... (doh!!) So luckily that is all sorted now and the videos will be back to normal this week!

However, then I had an anxiety attack at work half way through my shift for no apparent reason. I haven't had one for a while and nothing triggered it from what I can think of. Here's what happened; I was on a slow machine, easy peasy, no stress or anything, yet I suddenly had this wall of fear hit me. I got seriously lightheaded and had to be escorted to the first aid emergency room to sit on a chair with some cold water for about half an hour. Luckily my collegues were really great and helped me a lot. They never left my side which was obviously great. I didn't want to leave work, I said I would wait to see if it passes but after half an hour they said it's best that I went home because I was a fall risk (understandable).

Then, to top it all off one of my dear little fishies got ill and is still ill. I think he has a swimbladder problem and I've been researching online for information on how I can treat it and I've literally tried almost everything. He is no better though. I even fed pieces of peas with tweezers because he couldn't get to the food. However, it didn't work. I hate seeing any animal suffering. It's the worst thing in the world. I know some people are probably thinking "Well... it's just a fish..." but no, to me he's not "just a fish". He's a living creature and deserves every chance of survival like any other creature!

Right now I've separated him from the other fish so he isn't stressed by them. I've lowered the water in his tank so there is less pressure on him as he is currently at the bottom of the tank. There's also a pump in there giving him oxygen. I guess the last resort will be medication which I am getting today from the pet shop. I never realised there was actual swim bladder medicine so I am going to try it out. I just hope he pulls through!

So, that was the poopy week in my life! However, it's best not to dwell. It's now the weekend! (I don't work on Fridays so I class it as the weekend)

I hope you've had an awesome week, and if not, hey! Don't worry, it's almost the weekend. Treat yourself to something and know that every day is a new day, a new chance to turn things around for the better. It's never too late to start again!


Lot's of love,


Kelly Jayne x